Hang in there Switch. We all fall sometimes but it doesn't mean that we have failed. We all make mistakes but we can get back up again. A few months is an awesome achievement and you can get back there.

Can you distract yourself until the urges start to pass again? Find something you find relaxing or fun to try and take your mind off the cuts. Or is there someone you can talk to? Sometimes having someone to vent to can make a big difference. I'm also always happy to listen if you ever want to PM me.

And try to remember:

Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying, 'I will try again tomorrow'. ~ Mary Anne Radmacher

I know it is hard, but you haven't failed. What is more important is what you do now.