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Old Oct 20, 2013, 12:01 AM
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Originally Posted by innocentjoy View Post
I've been with her since January, and have loved having her until recently. I think she may have changed styles recently, going more cbt based than before, and I am taking tha as a constant "you're not good enough" message, instead of what it's probably intended as.

I have no idea why Lucy was so upset, as we haven't even brought her up. I think she was feeling my anger and took it upon herself to 'own' it. Emotions that I find difficult to feel/express seem to be a trigger for switching for me. I wouldn't let H out because I didn't want her to be hurt again until I could make sure that my T understood.

I am planning on writing a letter to her so that I can say everything i need to, without being distracted by being in her office. My problem is that I don't realize how triggered I am in sessions until after I leave. Then I get overwhelmed (this is a pattern for me with all my treatment providers).

I don't feel comfortable making 'acceptable/not acceptable' rules for us because I have many issues based on this type of rules system already. there are already much to high expectations of us, from us. I was able to take the letter Lucy wrote and turn it into I statements, so at least the important points can be shared and won't be innapropriate.

I need to learn better ways of being angry, and ways of being okay to be angry, without letting it take over. It's just difficult
We have rules, in fact we have a lot of rules, but we have them to keep us safe. The biggest rule is we can't do anything to hurt us or the body or anyone who is not hurting us. We can say what we want in session but we don't physically hurt anyone or ourselves. That is a rule. As long as we all understand that the rules we follow are to keep us safe we are ok with the rules. That is how I understand my rules.
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