I just don't know what to do. I hate the fact that my therapist didn't make me an appointment for the beginning of the week. I don't know how to get through the day, let alone until Thursday. It's 7:30am over here and I've been awake since 5am feeling incredibly anxious and terribly afraid of failing things (mainly my upcoming exam and presentation). I don't sleep well anymore. I also fear tomorrow's session in the chemistry lab. I'm so afraid of making mistakes in there that it sucks the fun out of it. I hate that. Then there's also this general feeling of dread. I don't even want to get out of bed but I have to because I have to go to university and study all day (which will make me even more anxious). I'm so stressed out. Overwhelmed. I'm tired all the time and everything is unbelievably difficult.

I think I deserve some help. Right? So why the heck can't I get the help I need? It's been over a year since I started seeking help and I feel just as bad (if not worse) nowadays.

This is all really messed up and I feel like the worst person in the world for complaining so much. Sorry for ruining your day with this but you guys are really the only ones listening right now.