they freak me out all the time everytime...

it's the most un-natural interpersonal environment I can imagine.

I am still very uncomfortable and not used to it.

I deleted my account once...
changed my name also
changed it back
I go invisible and then I show I am here...

I have this uncontrollable urge to write...
and then I am terrified by it...

the amount of fear I experience here is directly proportionate to how much I need to express it...

I cannot win

my bpd demands validation and this is achieved regardless if anyone replies.

I am a victim I have become too involved but I will likely never feel comfortable here.

I discovered without even looking that it's not a place to say..."hey I'm all better now"

I get some relief with that