felt really bad all day yesterday, so didn't post too much.

stayed in bed mostly...

and today, not much better- severely depressed and suicidal, but i'm sitting by my window feeling the air on my face... that's nice.

i am having my roast dinner today which will be nice (not sure if it will be lamb or bief yet), and getting my requests played this morning like i do every sunday... so i guess that's a reason to get up.