Hello Useless Me-
I wanted to first send you a hug and then tell you that I empathize with you. I too use self-injury (cutting) to help ease suicidal thoughts and feelings. That is one of the reasons I cut myself and I don't know what I would do if I didn't have that. I think that ultimatums can make matters worse, your therapist telling you to go two days without any SH. I had a therapist who responded in an anxious way to the SH issue and it just caused me to feel more anxious, and more badly about myself, and to deal with it I cut myself even more. The thing was, the therapist never helped me with alternative ways of dealing with the overwhelming thoughts and feelings-he just wanted me to stop. I can understand your feelings about this.