Still in a bipolar depression, and it's been almost three months. I keep on posting on here about how I think my depression is lifting, but soon after, I realize I'm still stuck it. My positive thoughts are so few and far between. I feel awkward, like I don't know what to do with myself. I have a lot of fear about what each day will bring. I just want this to be over, where life just flows, instead of having constant thoughts of angst and that I don't fit in.

I know I'm better than I was when this episode first started, but I still find myself crying uncontrollably at times, and then feeling okay other times. I wonder if anyone can relate. Wow, this was a long and convoluted post.