Greetings.

I really don't want to live for another 70 years. I can't win, I can't find my "place" in life, I will never wake up and be happy.

I have been alive long enough to see that I am going to be ill, alone and depressed for the rest of my life. Not a single day goes by that I can say I am glad I lived to see it.

I don't want to be triggering but what do I do if I can't succeed in life and I can't make it through another 70 years? It would be such a painful waste of time to live all that time.

The fact is.... we all like to avoid mentioning how nature works and we all like to turn a blind eye to the truth. Some of us can't win, some of us should of died in the wild but because of our modern society we are kept around. Its just the way nature is, some people are born to win others are born physically or mentally ill and won't ever enjoy life or find success.

What do we do? Those that have not seen or felt endless days and nights of pain and unhappiness would let us believe there is a way to make it all right. I am old enough to know that is not true for a large group of us.

So what do we do?