for a second i thought i posted to this thread, but... hmm, nah the one i posted too had a title like this, but..

yeah- it was posted after i logged off (so pretty impossible)

but i'll say here what i said on that other thread

i intentionally trigger myself a lot too, especially on the days where i just feel entirely numb. it feels good to have the pain- even if i know it's not good... if i can trigger myself and feel the pain, i know i'm still alive