You don't sound like a fraud or melodramatic. You do sound like you're having a really hard time with your eating and body image. It doesn't matter if you're not eating disordered in the clinical sense. The DSM-V diagnoses are classifications designed to provided treatment providers with a frame of reference. In reality, people don't always fit neatly in these classifications. Human behavior and mental health range widely. What matters is that your issues are interfering with your life and you're miserable as a result. They're are not imaginary, and you deserve help.

It sounds like you're experiencing more stress than usual. I hope you find PC a source of relief. Along with AR2004, I urge you to see a therapist specializing in eating disorders. It can help you a lot.

Let us know how you're doing!