I'm kind of going through the same thing. I'm 26 and got married a year and a half ago. Then my husband got a really good, stable, well paying job. And then the baby clock really started ticking...

When I was younger, it was, I don't want kids and I don't want a husband. Which turned into I don't want kids. Which turned into I don't know if I want kids. Which is where I'm at now. My husband has always wanted kids, but the older he gets and the more he sees his sister and her disaster of a family, he's starting to think not having kids would be okay. He used to want to have kids young, and now he's all about waiting if we do have kids.

But I'm the same way as you, I still don't like being around other people's kids. I don't know how to interact with them. I don't know how to hold a baby. I don't feel like I've got any maternal instinct (which my T and my mom have both told me isn't true, I just don't see it). So here's what I'm doing. I'm A) waiting to make a decision until I am fully functional without medication. And B) learning absolutely everything I can about having children, from being pregnant, to breastfeeding, to thinking about parenting, schools, and discipline, and how our finances would be impacted. Right now, I'm just absorbing as much information as possible. You and I both have time to wait to make this decision. I've noticed the urge comes in waves, though. I don't know how long you've been feeling this way, but for me it started right around the time we got married and then it went away for a while, and I went back to saying "IF we have kids." It comes and goes depending on whats going on in my life. Just sit with it for a bit and take all the time you need to make this decision. It has to come from you and your husband. There is no wrong or right answer.