Thanks everyone, it's good to know I'm not just being overly dramatic, though it still feels that way, I just feel as though if I go see a T they'll just look at me, go, "she's healthy, she's just attention seeking", and I feel as though if I get that reaction, it's going to make everything so much worse, so it does scare me a bit.
That said, my fiancé does really want me to go see my dr at least, so I'm going to bite the bullet and make an appointment with my GP, and see how that goes. He knows I've self harmed in the past, so he's probably a good person to talk to I guess. I just don't know what the hell I'm going to say. Cause I feel as though I have no right to claim anything being at a healthy weight...