As someone with OCD traits and a constant cleaner, cum is a major problem for me. It is gross and it causes such a mess. I don't know how to get over this, and it freaks women out because as soon as I ejaculate on them or on my bed, I just want to clean to be honest, I'm removed from them and focused on getting out the cleansing wipes and paper towels. This must seem weird to them and highly insulting. I think I should talk about this with a therapist but it is seriously shameful.