I am concerned that if I seek help for mental health issues, namely borderline personality disorder, it will be on my record permanently and I will be discriminated against. I do want help but I am just not ready to submit and hand my life over. I want to be in control of my own life and not be at the mercy of whether other people think that I am a risk or not. I am not a danger to anyone quite the opposite so I believe it should be up to me who gets to know what I have to deal with inside my own head. I feel as though if I seek the help I need then that information will be stored and available to other people. Employers, insurers, clients, etc. What if I want to travel and get a visa to another country? What if I was wrongly accused of something and it came out I had a history of mental health issues? No-one would take me seriously.

Basically I am just wondering what other peoples' experiences with this are? I know that everyone is going to say that I should get the help I need but this is a real concern for me. I feel like having it on my medical records could be more detrimental to my life's achievements than just suffering and trying to deal with it myself. I mean, I've made it this far.