I know what you are going through....I have lost 2 of my eskies in the last year.....I still have 3 of my babies.....but my mommy eskie (Destiny) & my little girl Celia (who was always my buddy & went everywhere with me.....then Leo joined her along with Tawny when I left my husband & moved here)....my eskies are what keep me going & allow me to feel real love in my life.......they all have been my special babies & each has a special place in my heart. I was giving Celia baby food with a syringe along with fluids the last few weeks of her life....as she wasn't in pain until the end.......wouldn't let her suffer & she let me know when it was time.

My heart feels for what you are going through....there is nothing like the love of our puppies....I have loved my cats when I had them....but my eskie dogs were all the more wonderful close emotional ties with me