Sounds like your in a real tough place right now.. I'm glad you did talk to your Dad and he is able to help you out financially.

I know you had a bad trip inpatient there once so your probably going to have keep pushing to find the help you need ! I doubt you want another inpatient stay.

You said you made a Sui attempt last week? This isn't something to fool around with.. Did you tell any one about it? Seriously ... I know you feel there is no hope and can't find motivation for much ... Really try Mindfulness..Just stay in the moment..

Program your crisis hotline number into your phone , just in case, they can help.