"you have tools now"
"you've progressed so much"
"you survived and have no scars"
so why can't i get it?
why do i keep hurting?
why do i hurt others b'cuz
i keep hurting me?
i want it all to stop
i'm stuck in a
whirlpool
being dragged down
sucked under
grabbing for anything
and not able
to hang onto something
as it slops from my hand
and briefly
i can stop the rush
with new pain
and i can breath for a moment
then it starts again
and i'm drowning
and grasping
and gasping
and screaming
but all i hear is
"you've progressed so far"
"you have tools now"
"you've survived and have no scars"