I'm glad I did, too. Even though right now, I'm pretty sure I'm back in a denial stage. I don't know. It can be hard to tell. I'm pretty sure I've experienced it for quite some time.. but I've always reasoned it, you know? And yeah, it's pretty hard to get out of this way of thinking.

I just keep telling myself that it isn't that bad. That I'll be okay. And to some point, I believe it. Even though another part of me does not. It's this constant battle within me. And so often, I feel like I really am just imagining it. I don't know. Right now, I'm in a torn state about it. Mixed feelings about it. This part happens a lot, too.

I'm going to try my best to write it out. Thanks for the reply.