So yeah. Was going to do it. But when I promise something, I do it, and I promised my counselor I would call her if I was thinking about suicide. I was already out on the road, looking for a good wooded spot. But when she called back I pulled over into a park, and let her talk me into going to the hospital, I don't know why I did. So I drove all the way down there, anxious as could be... waited around the hospital, but there weren't any openings there or at the other one in town. So I promised I wouldn't kill myself tonight and I'm going back for the day program tomorrow. Fun.
And man do I feel like crap. Too much crying, anxiety, horrible day... I'm tired but buzzing on... I'll go to bed soon. Augh this is scary. But at least I can keep it from my mom since I won't be staying there...

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Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.</font color=green> Sounds good...