searching suicide on aol I found this site and reading some posts has helped but that was a few hours ago. I just hurt myself and I want to hurt myself more, take something to hurt myself , I dont even know anymore. Ive been hurting myself for so many years and been so depressed for as long as i can remember. I tried to avoid si, my boyfriend told me this weekend if i do it again he'll cut my arm off (ha ha) but now he hurt me and so i hurt myself. Im so lonely nothing can help me. I guess I just need to get it out right now. Thanks to anyone listening.