I've been where you are now, I've felt how you are feeling. Sometimes its the kids that keep us going every day, that's what kept me here when nothing else could. I could never leave my kids. They are my everything. I understand living in your own head, I still live there. Its a nicer world than the real one. But we can't stay in it always unfortunately. We all make mistakes. I have hurt my family and will not be able to take back what I did but I have to move forward and so do you.

You will feel better, make your drs help you feel better. That is their job. Talk to your pdoc, your therapist, bring your family into counseling if you can, do what you must. You are worth it, you are worthy of feeling better.