Hello Poppy Princess-I read through this thread hoping to see that there was some ease in your suicidal thoughts and feelings but then the thread just stopped. I hope that you are okay and still with us. I also want you to know that I understand. I have been struggling with hopeless thoughts and feelings for the past several years. Some days are so bad and I think I won't make it another minute. Someone on this thread said that suicide is so final and that is the truth. There is no going back. I try to tell myself that I don't know what will happen tomorrow and if I end it all I will never know. But it is so hard, I know. Do you have anyone who you can talk to face to face? I'm almost completely isolated and that is hard, dealing with this stuff alone. If you ever want to talk you can always message me. I am here to listen. I can see that so many wonderful people replied to your thread-and they all want you to keep going, to stick around. So do I. I hope you decided to stay.