Wow. I could have written half of these posts myself! I've been with my T nearly 3 years, and it's still a struggle at times to realize how heavily I rely on T. It took a good year before I was even able to admit that I had come to rely on T, another year before I was willing to consider that dependency ok, and even now, it's something that still comes up every few weeks, like I need to check in with T to make sure it's ok that I need T, and it's still ok with T.

Such an odd bird therapy is - we live our whole lives being fiercely independent, almost proud of our ability to survive on our own, then this stranger walks into our life, and we fall to pieces at the thought of being able to depend on them.