Why are good moods so fleeting? Why can't I get him off my mind? I see him everywhere, in everything, and these thoughts of him won't leave my mind alone. I dreamed of him last night, and in the dream I was flying, soaring above the land, which was darkening because the sun was setting, and I met him on top of a mountain, rushed into his arms, and we watched the sunset, and I just held him. I told him everything that I so desperately want to tell him in real life. And then came the music. Sometimes in my dreams I hear music, and it's not music that I've ever heard before, it's like something my head makes up. Usually classical, but this one was a Celtic woman singing, and I'll be darned it it wasn't the most beautiful and SAD music I've ever heard. But when I wake up I can never remember what it sounded like. It's like a gift to me while I sleep, but the gift is gone by the time I wake up. The dream was so real, and I could literally feel a breeze blowing on top of the grassy mountain. God I love him so much and I wish I had the guts to tell him.