Hey, I'm Jay and I'm 21 years old. Full-time student; this is my first semester back at school since I was hospitalized in January. I was diagnosed with Bipolar II and it was actually a big relief because it explained so much, but it's also been very difficult to adjust---finding the right meds, trying to just participate again, the whole stigma thing.

It's also been really hard to connect to people who don't really understand what's going on. (& I know it's not their fault at all! Good for them, really) I feel like every time I talk about it, I have to turn into this spokesperson for Bipolar Disorder and it's hard to have to balance being honest with how frustrating and scary this all is while having to educate/try not to make myself seem too "unstable" to my family and friends.

Doesn't help that my psychiatrist is this silent, scribbling figure that just observes me and doesn't really engage.

Um, I'm not sure what else to say except that I hope this will be a good outlet because I'm getting really sad about this and I just don't know what else I can do anymore.

Thanks for reading! <3