Im more worried about something more serious happening. I was in hospital with a lady who had bi polar, she didnt seem "dangerous" to me... less than a year later she killed her twin babies during an episode. For me personally, I am not prepared to take the risk until I am more stable. I work with disabled children, I have seen multiple parents have breakdowns because of their childrens disabilities, that has the potential to end my life. I think thats going to screw up any kid.

Im glad to hear your children keep you motivated Sounds incredibly difficult but rewarding.