Oh Simon,

Depression is such an Ugly Monster! I have suffered with it for many years. One moment you are up and everything seems fine and the next moment you don't want to live anymore.
People who don't suffer from depression can't imagine that a person can actually feel this way, but we do and there is nothing we can do to change it. I have heard alot of times that they will say "Just get over it" Oh wouldn't it be nice if it were that simple? How does one just get over it? I have never figured it out yet and I am going on 29 years of fighting depression.
This may sound weird, but I am glad that you had that little breakdown. It helped to get all the frustration out and that is alot safer, what you did than what you could have done.
I am so happy for you that you figured a way to get the music program working. It can be very frustrating when we work so hard at something and still things don't work.
As of yesterday, I had DSL for three days and it quit working twice in those three days. I was on the help hotline for almost five hours trying to find someone to help me. Talk about frustration!!
Anyways, be good to yourself. You deserve it. You really do.
I worry that you aren't taking good care of yourself, though. You really need to eat more. After not eating for awhile, we get to the point that our minds tell us we aren't hungry and that's not good. You can get to the point where the smell of food will make you sick if you don't start eating and taking care of yourself. I truly worry about you.
Wow, that sounds great when your brother moves out and you get his room! I know that you will make it a really cool room. That will be awesome. Red is my favorite color, so I think painting two walls red will be so cool. It would be great if you could take a couple of pictures when you are done with the room and share them with us.
I would love to see it after you are done making it YOUR own!!
Well, I seem to be writing a book here, so will get off and let your eyes rest.
Hugs,
Linda