Hi,

Sorry that I haven't posted for a while.

How do I deal with this horrible feeling every day? I don't know what it's called, but it happens when I go out in public, when I go shopping or on the school run. I get this weird tense feeling that everyone is looking at me in a bad way. I end up stressed and agitated. I had an argument with a stranger in the shop this afternoon over something minor. I know it could've been totally avoided but I was stressed. Just before I went in there, someone nearly run me over on a push bike then she glared at me afterwards.

I know that people do really hate me. They think I'm unfriendly and nasty but I blame my social anxiety on this. I get panic attacks in public and I end up crying. It's a horrible horrible feeling. It's affecting people around me and I'm getting a reputation.

I stopped seeing my therapist because I found him creepy. I have no one to talk to.

xxx