I was just in the ER last Sunday for a mixed episode. It was the first time in my life I truly felt I had lost it. My mind was going so fast and all over the place that I couldn't focus on what was happening or what the conversation was. I was laughing manically at ridiculous things and then instantly finding myself in tears. I was irritated by little things and just not myself at all.
After getting medicine, seroquil, I have just been rapid cycling for this past week. Again, not fun. It's about every 24 hours I hit a low and then cycle back through the next 24 hours into a high.