never say never. if you work at it, you can be like you want to be... i'm sure

some things are maybe just part of your personality.. for example, you may have a certain amount of cympathy for people, or you may think things out a certain way.. that's just how it is

i am pretty sure the lazyness is not through you, it's through depression or something else out of your control- maybe work on small goals that you wish to acheeve so you can work on that.

anyway wanted to reply so you didon't feel like no one was reading your thread