I mentioned it to my T and she says the voice is a protector. At some point in life it was formed in order to protect us from being hurt - maybe fear of disappointment or of failure. I think for me, I spent most of my life being bullied by people who were angry at me for my good qualities - for being smart and for being slim. They would insult me for these things, which made me want to gain weight so they would stop calling me anorexic (I wasn't). I wouldn't brag or feel good about good grades, because I knew I would be insulted for it. Even as an adult sometimes I would get snide remarks like how I'm like "Martha stewart" because I baked cupcakes and brought them in to share. I'm sick and tired of people who put me down whenever I show my good side. Just last week I had a coworker poking and prodding at my new position they just gave me at work, pointing out what she thinks is bad about it even though I'm happy about it. Maybe that's why I sabotage myself from achieving anything good, to get people off my ****ing back.