Thanks sunsetsunrise. The problem is I am logical and rational in thought, but not in emotions and deed, you know?

I want to have children sometime soon. I'm already upset to have delayed it while loads of stuff comes out in T. If I let my ED get worse and worse, I'm going to make it harder and have to put it off for longer.

Thank you for saying I'm smart, I really appreciate it. I just wish I could listen to myself more...!