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Originally Posted by unlockingsanity
Oh my goodness Rainbow. Why do you torture your stuff with looking up your T and their family? It really isn't healthy. I hope you can talk to your T about it and work through it.  |
I haven't done it for months! We talked about it in the past and I told myself I wasn't going to look her up anymore. I don't know why I did. I didn't expect to find her on FB. I don't know why I looked up her daughter. I don't know what to tell T if I tell her about this. Maybe those threads about "real relationships" and "is it a real relationship" triggered me. I want T for myself, not anyone else. Needy child part wants her so badly it hurts. Wants her to be holding me, not her grownup kids. I know this is regressive stuf--maybe T will say "grist for the mill". Maybe there's more to work on before I have to quit.
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Originally Posted by caseygirl
Rainbow, I have the same feelings for my T. It's difficult to live with and I have to ignore the urges to pick up the phone and call her because I need her so badly. I just have no one to talk about what's going on, and with only monthly one hour appointments, it just isn't enough.
I wish I could afford to see her more as she is in private practice and has already reduced her payment rate for me. I will just have to tough it out, but it is so, so very difficult.
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Thank you, caseygirl. Monthly appointments sound so hard. I've been fine lately, but triggered myself. Bad thing to do.