Wow, I'm amazed you're still standing. I have only had a strong addiction to sugar(not a problem anymore) caffeine (under control) but my addiction to alcohol is my greatest struggle. I have had to have one drink a night for over twenty years. I need to step beyond it and let go but on the other side are child abuse memories. Not looking forward to this next step. Hang in there. letting go of those who are no good for you, only to find all the good ones have left is a hard place to be. Nothing but time, I guess. Thanks.