Thornbird: I don't think I really have survived it. I am pretty mangled up inside and just beginning to unravel myself. Some days I can get pretty pissed off at all of the crap I've taken. Some days I just want the hell out. Wish I could go! If I were rich I'd be gone. Just don't want to live in my car is all...

embellished: Thank you for your kindness. I am working toward my healing. I am looking into a therapist now, but I cannot afford 100 bucks an hour. I will try to see what the insurance will cover and who 'they' say I can use. Plus I have to juggle everything with my mom's cancer care. It's time. It is time to get my head and heart some help.

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