****Some may feel this is bad parenting or regret but I don't feel it is*****

kids persistently demand your attention. You learn to work around BP just like everything else. All parents have short comings we just know what ours are. My husband and I decided to have my son when I was 18 at the time our income was 75% higher then our bills. We fell for the "You wont feel that way when it's your kid." but I did. I had severe undiagnosed PPD possibly PPP.

So after moping for a while, I became the best babysitter in the world and I was damn good at it! Reminding myself at the most frustrated to calm down that his parents will be there in a little while. I tailored everything to him, disciplined and played with him like the babysitting course taught me to as a kid. Read books to him, watched movies with him when I was depressed. We cooked, clean, did crafts, and generally made messes when manic. I grew to care and love him at times or wishing his parents would come but always wanting the best.

As he's got older he's more like a house mate, except he likes hugs every 5 min. I got over the resentment of the weight gain (stupid ED), he triggers my ocd less. We have a very large support group of family, friends, and a team of dr's that are all inter-connected. This doesn't mean we don't have horrible times but he has had as much stability as he can. I think he's going to probably grow up to a healthier adult then 'normal' parent's kids.

I don't Feel any one deserve kids. If you really do want kids why not sign up for a short daycare course to see if you want to put that into practice with your kid(s)?