I hate that I have to keep reminding myself that I'm not normal. Thank I can't control feeling sad or downright suicidal. Simple things, normal everyday things, are triggers for me. I hate it. And I hate knowing what I need to do, not doing it, then feeling completely guilt-ridden afterwards. I see others and envy how easy it is for them to take a deep breath and just move on. I instead miss work and lose money and bury myself deeper into a hole.

i just want to sleep...for a long time.