I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much and don't feel like you can connect. I know how it feels to need to grow up and be an adult before your time so can definitely relate there - it sucks!

I know it is hard but don't give up - keep trying to connect with people. It takes time and unfortunately sometimes a lot of bad experiences but you will find people who you can connect with and relate to. They are out there

If you ever want to talk though please feel free to PM me. I don't always have answers but am always happy to listen and get to know people.