I was relieved. So so relieved. There was a name for this, and a reason I was acting the way I was. I did a lot of research when I first was diagnosed, did a lot of therapy, tried a lot of medications. After a few years of struggling the wrong meds I started to think it was hopeless, that my life was going to be like that forever. The mixed episode was a blessing in disguise, it got me back on meds and my life back on track. Now Im throwing myself back into all those things I tried when I was first diagnosed and they are helping, much to my surprise.