Hi Samanthagreene,
I'm glad you shared this. I haven't SI'd in a long time. (Well, I guess I did one thing 3 months ago, but other than that, I really haven't.) Sometimes it's been through image seeking on the Internet especially. And sometimes it's been by listening to really abrasive experimental noise turned up really high on my headphones. I think for me, I seek it out if I'm feeling really empty or scared of facing some kind of boredom or silence. ShatteredSanity and CrimsonBlues, you described something that resonates with me too. I guess for me it seems to be sort of like flirting with seeing how close I can get to SI again and testing myself to make sure I don't want to. Probably need to work on that one.

I like what Uselessme brought up about having someone to distract you. That sounds like a good idea. Something I'm also wondering about possibly looking into is....do you have something that really stimulates your interests or makes you feel really inspired to create something? I should probably look into this myself, but sometimes really powerful art or music can give me that, oh idk, piece of mind or strong feeling. And maybe it doesn't have to be triggering, but just strong. Again, like UselessMe says, maybe it can be strong AND shake off that negativity?