On another thread tonight you wrote to your T not to change her settings on FB because you like to see her pictures. Maybe that is just wishful thinking on your part, but it sounds like you want to continue to go into her FB page. Perhaps just a "wish", but I'm not sure indulging those kinds of fantasies is a particularly good coping skill.
It almost seems that you have created this little "crisis" with FB as a way to pull in your T to conversations about her (which is what you like to do instead of dealing with your own issues in your sessions). You've expressed multiple times how it bothers you when you want to talk about her and your feelings for her, but she doesn't let you go there like you want. Is this a subconscious ploy to pull her into your fantasies about how much you love her, etc. and get that focus back there?
I agree with MKAC and Feral. You need to try to sit on this one for a few weeks without bringing it up to your T. I think you really want to create this little crisis with her as a way to get those feelings back for her. Don't indulge that urge. Instead, give it time to blow past. It will if you allow it to instead of fixating on it and turning it into the focus of your therapy existence for the next several weeks (which is what is probably going to happen if you get your way).
You like to talk about your child parts, and your T wants you to stop letting the child parts run the show. Well there you are. If you indulge this child in this behavior as a way to get attention (which is what it is feeling like from this perspective), the child is running the show. Use your adult self to rein that child in, cope in healthy adult ways, and move past this on your own.
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