Within about 2 weeks I broke up with my ex and found somebody so much better for myself (who lives 3 hrs away) and I'm engaged(she proposed=) after a very short time--1 1/2 mos., which may be a problem in itself, but my problem is that my ex is still around because we try to be friends. I think that the wounds are too deep to be friends though, that's why I'm in this position where I find myself thinking that maybe it would be easier to just go back with my ex even though I know I won't be happy. We still love each other very much. I know I put a lot of stress on myself and I don't want to become one who tries to fulfill everyone else's expectations and in the end neglect my own. I've just been going through a lot of sleepless nights that are interfering with my 8am summer classes. Do you think it was too soon for a new girlfriend, much less a fiancee? I just don't see it, aren't most people looking for happiness? I'm looking for something I can't explain. I'm thinking maybe I'll recognize it once I find it but who knows? Also, I started thinking that my fiancee proposed to me so that she couldn't lose me, which seemed romantic at first, but now that just seems kinda weird. Everytime I talk to either one I fall in love with them all over again, except my ex and I constantly fight. The fiancee and I are suppose to exchange rings on Fri. but I'm considering canceling my trip in favor of my ex, someone help me with advice or direction...I'm only 21--this (in)decision will follow me for a lifetime....
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