I can say that I have hit bottom. Thoughts of hurting myself flood my mind everyday. I have no where to turn, no family, no support. I was recently divorced in 10/03. My ex-husband got everything. The only thing I got was what I could carry myself and haul in my little car. He even got residential parenting of our 13yr old twins. I have never been separated from my children. We do have shared parenting, but on the days that they are not with me, I cry so much. The separation from my children is killing me inside. I am a Registered Nurse, but to the point that I cannot work. I know that I am going to loose my recent nursing position, because I can't commit myself to work. I am over $30,000.00 dollars in dept, bills keep coming in and I am to the point of filing bankruptcy. Yesterday was my breaking point. I wanted to give up on life. I didn't care anymore. I have no strength left inside. I just laid in my empty apartment alone, afraid, given up, drained mentally and physically. I would love to go to counseling, but finacially I cannot afford it. Is there any hope for me? I am so torn and struggling inside. Please someone help me.
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