gosh dexter! you must have wanted the ground to swallow you up! poor thing!
your storey minded me of a phenomenon we talked about when i was training to be a teacher of english as a foreign language. you will often find in every class a student who is very shy and hates to be singled out in class. of cause you will be concerned about your student and will want to encourage them so its important to ask them only the questions you are certain they will be able to answer. it can be guaranteed that at some point you will ask that poor shy student the most difficult question of the day! it happened to me once duing a game. the poor girl looked so panicked and she scratched her hand and drew blood! i have never felt so awful about anything! it was horrible.

i kind of imagine that its like your subconscious is there in the back ground saying 'OK. i dont want you to say X. whatever you do dont say it. ok? right....dont say it...dont say it...dont say it....dont SAY it...dont SAY IT....dont SAY IT... SAY IT.. SAY IT...AHHH! NO what are you doing!! you said it???!!! .....you said it!.....i was telling you NOT to say it! !
i cant believe you just say it!

its quite funny in a way. there is an old sit-com in the UK i think it is known in the US its called 'faulty towers'. in one some german people come to stay in the hotel. the owner, basil faulty, keeps telling himself 'dont mention the war....dont mention the war...' then when he goes to serve them dinner he keeps on making freudian slips that refer to the war which leads to tears naturally!

it makes you wonder what else you subconscious it screaming at you NOT to do!

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