Psyclox,

Desperation is a good thing. I know it doesn’t feel like a good thing, but it is. That torment you are feeling may be the touchstone of growth for you. I hope so.

You have been around long enough to know that the false hope of moderation is a cruel joke for people like us. We are either clean and sober or we are deep in our addictions. For us, there is no in between.

Get a sponsor and use em’ There is only heartache on the other side.

One day at a time,
Richard