I hope you are able to work through it. Unfortunately for me this wasn't a breakthrough, rather a set back. I've never lost time, and recently I've been so stressed that the switching is becoming much more out of control than it ever was. Always before I still had control over my actions, I just kind of switched 'modes'. Had I been blacking out before, though, this definitely would be a great breakthrough, to be aware of it.

I hope you can find a lot of support on here, it's a pretty cool place

Clarity,
I must have missed it the first part. That sounds like a great idea, to have them voice their opinions for you only during therapy. I don't think that would work for me, though, as they have been clamoring for attention. Perhaps I should be spending more time focusing on them when things aren't at crisis level, instead of waiting until I feel out of control.

A Red Panda,
You are so supportive always, thank you. It's nice to know someone else understands those thought patterns.

I wrote a letter to her explaining everything, how I was feeling, why I think it's that way, and explaining what i need from her. I bourhgt it in today to talk to her....and it was a disaster. I never got to read it I had called yesterday to book a time to sit down with her, and she told me to come in today during her on call hours. I guess she didn't realize what I needed because she said it was something that needed to wait until our therapy session. The problem is that our next session she has another staff sitting in, and I wanted it to be dealt with before I had to talk to both of them together. Eventually we worked out that she will postpone the dual session so that we can talk just us two on Friday. I've made myself sick over this whole thing, I'm so upset. It took so long to work up the courage to talk to her, and then I was only able to tell her that i was having issues without anything being dealt with.