Hello Desirae. I hope things are going better for you at this time. Are you seeing a therapist, if so I strongly feel that you need to see your therapist, since you seem to be traumatized by the event that took place. I dont feel that what happened is your fault, or that you need to feel this badly about something that was out of your control. I hope you contact your therapist to help you through this rough patch in your life. I am going to leave you the hotline number to call in case you need to talk to someone in person, who is confidential 1-800-273-TALK. I dont think you need to tell anyone (husband, friend) at this time, I feel that
you need to think about your mental health and keeping your mental health and yourself safe at this time. I hope the best for you and I hope you feel better soon. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia