I'm sorry but that's a curious addition to the previous statement that you want to be married to this man and have kids. Planning to be with him for 'awhile' seems a very temporary statement when considering a soon to be permanent living/relationship/situation.

I agree with those above. If the thing is 'intense' that's all passion and all, but it doesn't make it healthy for you...and it might make it dangerous in the long run for you and any children you might have.

Take care of yourself