Soidhonia.

thank you for your words.

i normally dont have anger, but i had a breakdown friday night, which could have been caused by several things. i dont feel i need to get therapy for my anger as it isnt a huge concern to me. im not letting it control my life, and i am living in today, but when i found myslef re-living the past, or that event in particular, i knew it would help to talk about it. trust me, it doesnt affect me, it doesnt make me cry, or sad, i know i did the right thing. sure i was/am annoyed they never helped, but its their loss. not mine. i wouldnt say i have PTSD, and i definately dont let it dictate my life.

what happened 3 years ago is in the past, where it belongs. i was misunderstood, and was accused of being something i wasnt, something sick. but i have moved on, i just wanted to talk about it as i felt it would help me even more to clean my system of all "toxin" as it were.

thank you all for your replies. i also posted this as a lesson for others to learn, as i believe that "what i leanr, hopefully others can too". it is a prime example of how cruel the world can be to those who try to make a difference. take from it what you will.

simon