So I am still insanely furious with my now x-t and I have a feeling that will take some time to dissipate. However, if I decide to continue receiving help from the mental health system, I very seriously may have to completely rebuild a team from the ground up. Because quitting with T without first running it by pdoc could result in pdoc terminating me. He(pdoc) knows I was/am absolutely furious with t but he really wanted me to think about it eventhough there was nothing to think about and I told him that. I guess a lot depends on my appt with pdoc next thursday. If he really does terminate me I will probably just take a very long break from all this. If he doesn't terminate I have to consider whether I am willing to find another T or terminate him. I don't know what I am looking for, I guess, nothing really, because I am still too hurt and angry to think clearly about the future, but me and t really needed to part ways.